Soul Desired to Speak to Me

Earlier, I had an experience. I started feeling this sadness of unfulfillment.

I then cried and felt this love for myself.. that I just desired myself to get well; to get better soon.

I cried on my bed and heard intuition, as I asked what do I do? I felt so unfulfilled.. that my soul was hungry for something.

I received an answer and heard it differently this time.
For my whole life, I had a conflict of polaric desires.
I was very grounded in the 3D and very aware, yet my spiritual life was non-existent.

Then I had an experience which flipped it the other way around. I had become intensely spiritual.. yet neglecting the physical with beliefs that was created over time.
(More about this in the next post 🙂

So below I share with you something I received that truly is speaking to me strongly now.

How To Fulfill Your Deepest Desires

Often-times, people strive to obtain wealth and satisfaction as their main goals in life. Many times we find ourselves becoming too comfortable once a fraction of this has been attained.

And even ending up spiraling back down to the beginning only to repeat our work; never really progressing anywhere. Or playing small; creating excuses to stay where you are.

In order to distinguish and prevent ourselves from getting into a comfort zone after a goal has been reached, we require to remember that we are actually not aiming for a comfortable life in the end.

Our soul seeks fulfillment of its purpose. It is born of this purpose and seeks to return to it.

The true goal we are aiming for is then not comfort of a rich life.. rather the fulfillment of our heart’s deepest desires; which in truth will bring about the most abundance as it is aligned with who YOU are.

For reaping the abundance of our work is the domain of FULFILLMENT at the deepest level, not comfort.

(c) Jennifer Lee, The Voice Of The Wounded Soul
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Abuse- Your Choice To Leave It.. or Not

As far back as I remember, my father would use excessive care-taking tactics which would convert to some form of excessive control. I have only lived with him for a few years of my life, yet these years were excellent learning experiences as I started to stand up for my own rights as a human being.
For those years of my life living with him, I noticed I kept saying to myself: “It’s just for a little while..” or “It’s okay, I just have to tolerate it.. I know he doesn’t mean all those violent words..” or “He’s just not feeling well, he is my dad anyways.. and I am the daughter…” and many other “dis-empowerment programs”. He would call me all kinds of degrading names and treat me like a dog. Disrespectfully entitle himself to go into my room and invade privacy or dictate ownership over my things.

By the way, I am a legal adult.

Little did I know, that all those thoughts to stay with him were my own self-created Jail. It stopped me from standing up for myself. It stopped me from knowing how I truly felt, by saying things that would “make him happy”. Everytime I spoke about my own thoughts, there would be some kind of degrading from my father. It was as if he owned me and I was not allowed to say anything. It also stopped me from gaining more response-ability to step up and say No to allowing this situation to continue.
It didn’t matter if he had a place for me temporarily due to economical reasons.
It didn’t matter if he was my dad.
It didn’t matter if … anything.

One day I came home from a trip out of country late at night and I returned to his home where I stayed at the time. He had locked the door using a lock which I have no key to. I decided it was time for me to get out of this jail that was killing my emotions and freedom of expression. I had remembered why I chose not to live there before in the first place. It became so clear to me. All I required to do was make a decision. And everything changed.

When someone, especially a family member, or significant other is unable to see you eye to eye, it’s time to leave. Money is never an excuse to stay with an abusive person. You are worth more than that exchange. When I left, I didn’t have a room to sleep in. I stayed in my car for a little while until I found a place. I got a gym pass to exercise and shower. I received so much support that I had no idea even existed.  Freedom is the best feeling. Being in a co-dependent relationship is the worst. It’s like choosing to chain yourself to someone else and having them feed you a love you didn’t think you had.

You don’t need an abuser treating you like an object or trying to shut down your soul from being free. You don’t need  We are all meant to express ourselves freely. No man has the right to ever control a person. And if you find yourself in a situation like this, ask yourself this: why you are willing to put up with such negativity? And for what price? What’s your excuse?

As long as you remain a mop in the house conforming to other people’s wants of you, you will always be in your own jail.I leave a poem here as a reminder that we are always taken care of by the universe:

Direction- A Poem

The dark Pupil, in the dark void
Eyes; one, two, how many to see?
seeking a Teacher, where is the path?
Purpose? Meaning? Am I here?
In this darkness, who am I?

Ah, here, I hear
There is a voice.
Closer than questions,
Atoms.. within me.

Spinning, circulating, breathing
The music of a galaxy..

Scattered and filled of stars,
the answers within..
Hand the worry to flames, letting go.
Hungry soul,
Rest in this blanket, the warmth of Home.

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(c) Jennifer Lee, The Voice of the Wounded Soul
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