May 5th… 8:39pm

Cinco de mayo…. stayed at home all day…
Slept most of the day
Feeling “shelled”
Like wanting to hide away from the world
Had these dreams based on the hopes of the past
But they’re still based on the past
Feeling stagnated
Where am I going
I must make a decision
Even if I move to the physical vicinity of my friends,

If my mind isn’t near them, it wouldn’t matter how close I was to them;
I’d be Unreachable
What is the motivation?
Depressed
Not feeling wanted or worth anything
If I had a problem, I would never resort to ineffective solutions to solve it.
I’d go for the ultimate solution.
Weak substitutes are like an insult to human capabilities of success in a challenge
I would never try to use that as a replacement
And I would never dabble with knowing the solution yet being incapable of executing it…
That’s a sick torture
What is the point of these depressed phases I go through?
How can it end once and for all?
I have not gained any known benefit from this other than numb suffering 
Time is going like water nowadays
Help me make my next jump

Ugly

There’s like a fist somewhere floating in the ethereal realm that crosses to the real world , each one clenching someone’s gut and threatening anyone that tries to speak of the ugly truth.

People are so afraid of speaking up and auto-police themselves.

“Run away”

 but it always chases you.

They’re so afraid of being different so they become like everyone else..

Following fake rules of social etiquettes where “You can’t say that” is their first amendment.

We are everywhere.

We are your reality.

In the end, it’s judgement. 

And once that’s gone, there’s only truth. 

Hideousness and beauty doesn’t even exist.

The Promise From A Metal Mind

From the stolen hopes of captured souls;
From a tongue weaved of dead matter..

The promise of a wealth spoken in golden sound..

From a land created of battery-powered fixtures…

And the metal establishment designed to fit you in their suffering..

Illuminates the free youths hungry for a new vision..
..For a new world.

Long due is the tyrant , lost in the head,
whose extended lifetime is sustained by other people’s life-force .. for a look at its own condition.

Speak and die
Or silence and long-suffering..

Shouldn’t the answer be clear enough?

When so tangled in the machine’s wires,
When will it be enough for us to evolve from a sheep?

We are the ones that actually hold the real flame; the true light.
We are the ones with the power to burn the old.

…When will we let ourselves die?
..die in the old?

The Death that is the end of suffering…

Get Ready, Lightholders

We came here as the LIGHTHOLDERS of earth.

We came here not to harden our hearts to deal with this 3D society, but to stand firm as the flame of light, an example to the peoples of their potential and direction.

Our family, our friends, everyone we have ever known or met…

We did not come here to be afraid of other people’s negativity nor as a victim of their darkness.

We did not come here to judge whether thy are suitable or not for us; our frequency already shows us by what we are attracting.

We came here to hollow out the occupied darkness in people’s hearts, if they so choose, and kindle the flame we already produce by mirroring to them our fulfilled and lit hearts.

We knew what we are capable of, and thus granted this PRIVILEGE to birth here on earth; the decision we granted to ourselves.

And not only an opportunity, but our manifestation alive and well here is the proof of our power to manifest a BEING into the flesh… a living light; this we are.

We did not come here to isolate ourselves from the rest.

We came in here purposefully to REPRESENT the light to others and SHOW THEM that this is real.

We did not come here to quarantine ourselves or hide to use our time for fear.

We came here well equipped to HANDLE the 3D; which we recognize is our creation.

And WE came here not alone, but with our tribes and families, fully supported by the divine within and around us to walk this GROUND; this we are sustaining.

So let us BE with each other in the liquid light we already are in the future that is NOW and dissolute the false barriers of separation and isolation of a mind that carries outdated CONTROL dogmas for fear of others… The matrix that is based off separation, because the truth is, we are all created of the source substance: love.

(c) Jennifer Lee, The Voice Of The Wounded Soul
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